The Squirrel is driving me NUTS

I don't know why I am posting this stuff about Squirrel here, instead of on the dating blog I had started back in the day. I guess because I feel most comfortable here, and don't know if I should even bother with posting on that site, as maybe those situations were jinxed because of that type blog. NUTS, right?
So bare with me as I ponder the acts of like/lust/and possible beginnings of love (OK, way ahead of myself here on that one.) But Squirrel has me going nuts because I am too chicken to take a step and ask away. A few posts back I asked the age-old question of 'how do you know if someone is interested in you.' Well, shortly after I had posted that, I found out that Squirrel does like me, really like me on some level. We had gone to a happy hour a few weeks back, and well...let's just say that Orelinde had a situation presented to her and she took it. I know....I KNOW! what was I thinking (actually nothing other than it felt good.) What was I doing (errrmmm, the act that I hadn't participated in for a very, Very, VERY long time with someon I was highly attracted to.) And Squirrel was so cute about it too. He tried to not jump on me, and go slowly. We fell asleep, and I woke up in the early morning, and skipped out as I had something to do the following morning at an ungodly hour.
But this post isn't about my sordid first activity with him. Because after that night, the following week, he took me to dinner (and ok, we wound up repeating our activities afterward.) But afterwards, he is so sweet, and tender, and gentle. He has (had) informed me that he is 'happy', we share secrets about ourselves. A few nights after that, we got together, had gone to a movie, and had dinner at his house, and hung with his roommates for a bit before having alone time. And of course I was informed that if I wanted a meaningful relationship with Squirrel, having THE SEX with him on the first night, or every time we get together is not the way to go about it. Claire has told me, big bro Nelson has told me. Fuck...even Cousin Dee has scolded me, and above anyone I would think she would be like 'you go get yours.'
Then things cooled off considerably. We went for coffee one night, and were supposed to do something then he got sidetracked on a project and I left him because he 'felt bad that I was bored.' We retty much didn't see one another all last week, although in Squirrel's defense, and as a tribute to him, I have to say that when he says he will call me, he does. I had texted him one night (biting the bullet), saying I missed him, the following morning I got a text back saying he missed me too. Last Friday I went for cocktails with some friends, and wound up going to his place after, to hang out. Well plans didn't work out as he got called away on an errand. Again I admitted to missing him, as he was holding me in his arms, and he confessed the same too. Then I went the extra-step and said 'you're so full of shit', to see if he was saying it just because I had said it first. He pulled back, looked in to my eyes, and repeated that he misses me, and that why wouldn't he know how he felt. He was slightly drunk too when I got to his house, and I thought that was a GOOD thing, as I could have tried to get some facts out of him. Facts that I am dieing to find out. I even told him that I had gone to his house with questions, but was leaving with them unanswered. Questions such as: (a) What is exactly going on between us- is it just sex? (b) are we friends w/ bennies? (c) is he 'hanging' out with any other women? (d) does he think we're dating? (e) will this progress to dating? (f) is there any future in this?
I figured if he was crocked and I was not, that he may be more willing to be truthful. He has told me in the past that I could ask him anything. I am just too chicken. And ladies, we all know how men are. You ask them a question, and they get all....well squirrely. (This is not how he got his nickname.) So what do I do? Just bite my lip and stay the course? Open my mouth and see what happens when I question? Or just try to get him relly drunk and find out the truth then?

The evils of being a dedicated & hard working employee

Ok, so I have to admit that this one really is because I opened up Pandora's box several months ago. I have been with my company for just over two years, and when I started at the company loved it. I had loved my boss, at the time (who is now refered to as 'Big Dick' or 'Big Bad'.) After working for him for several months, he moved me over to the other office, to work for another manager whom I was petrified of, only to realize how NICE and GREAT a man & boss he is. This man is 'The Chief'. anyway, I have reported to 'The Chief' for most of my career with the company, in a posistion which is basically internal customer service, as well as doing admin support work for him too. I was given the task of tracking/posting vacation, handling payroll, etc....but then when a certain cretin/co-worker/bain-to-my-existance came over...HE got those duties. When that happened I was pretty much reduced to the internal customer service crap, and filing as well as handling some duties with daily reports. I would love to go in to more detail as to my posistion or what I do, but you never know who's reading this.
Anyway the office I work in, is so much fun. My best friend works there too, and we bicker/fight all day long. Another co-worker constantly reminds me 'how old I am'....because he's only 21. There's a manager who is just a hysterical fruit-loop who comes out with the craziest of things, and then 'The Chief' gets in on it too. Do we goof around all day? Absolutly. Do we get it done by the days end? You bet your ass for the most part we do. However I've grown bored with what I do, and longed for something a bit more chall,enging. Something that deffently pays more than what I make. But what held me back was not wanting to leave my comfort zone, or any of the freaks I work with. Plus I know how my boss counts on me, and don't want to leave him stuck with inept employees. So back in August these two women from a different department approached me about an open posistion in their department that I'd be 'perfect' for. And I admit it. I toyed with the notion. But it was the day before I was leaving for vacation, and I wasn't sure if I really was wanting to work in that nest of vipers, which is the department looking for a new employee. So after my initial quary to the manager of that department, I informed her I was going to be going on vacation for 10 days and didn't want to hold up her interviewing. Before I had left for vacation, I touched on this matter lightly with 'The Chief' who told me that if it was in my best interest, he wouldn't hold me back.
So I went on vacation (back in August) and decided that I was not going to apply for that posistion. Yeah, what the hell was I thinking? Because the woman I had spoken with went to 'Big Dick' when I was on vacation and began to ask about me. Which flagged his suspisions, andhe approached 'The Chief' to see if any of this was true, and why was I looking to leave the department...etc. 'Big DIck' is big on paranoia, and conspiracy theories. And 'The Chief' told him that I toyed w/ the notion of branching out but opted not too. However when I got back from vacation, found a request from 'Big Dick' to meet with him. And totally blindsided, I went. And thus the 'offer' for the promotion was presented to me. Because you see, 'Big Dick' has not had luck with his employees. One employee just up and quit in the middle of the day last summer, then Claire transfered to a different department. Then the director of our department gave 'Big Dick' a girl from upstairs who this past summer pulled a Houndini as well and abandonded the posistion. Which leaves 'Big Dick' with just one employee who care about, and like but is as dumb as a bag of rocks, and so incompetant she can't even take a message down. (If you've been following the blog I think you'll know who this one is.) But I digress. At this meeting with 'Big Dick' he explains to me that they are not going to be hiring any other help on for my posistion, enabling to move me up the chain. That he knows I am bored out of my skull, and that he really needs me with him, as he has no support. And if I do not take this posistion, that I could possibly be phased out because 'changes are coming' and yada, yada, yada that I have no choice but to accept the promotion (and pay increase) to be his Administrative Assistant. I am also to keep this a secret, and not even tell 'The Chief.' He also wasn't able to tell me when this transfer back to him would be taking place, as due to my leaving the posistion they would have to hire my replacement, and I would have to train that person.
But people....as we know, for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. Because with this new posistion I am now under 'Big Dick's' thumb. I am not to socialize with any of my co-workers or friends from different offices or departments. (This includes 'The Chief', and my best friend) during business hours, I am not to discuss anything that goes on in my (Old) new office with anyone, and I am, and I quote 'being asked to refrain from taking my breaks with any other employees'. Do I need to repeat myself? Refrain from taking my breaks with any other employees.
So...there will be no laughter, no music, no smiling or making eye contact with anyone. Let alone 'Squirrel', if and when he works at my building. Not that he mentioned 'Squirrel', but you can get the idea from all else I have just mentioned. (See past posts on the guy I like. As that is his nickname, unbeknownst to him.) 'The Chief' can't believe this is going down, and there are alot of other crap that I can't even get in to on here because (a) t is just too much to post, (b) who knows who may be reading this, (c) it is just so petty.
Now I am in the process of training this older, and scary woman who they brought over from a different department of my company to fill my spot. She is just not hppy being there, doesn't want to learn, and when she decides to go to the restroom, treks across the building anddisappears for a good 20 minutes. I found out Friday night that she saw me and Claire talking in the restroom (which we were) and then she had the nerve to go bitch to my friend that I left her for 30 minutes to discuss her. UH-SHAH....I don't think so. Theyve also interviewed this girl who more than likely will be hired to take over my other duties and act as back up to old-lady. And I am glad if they do hire this person, because she has a brain and can help out 'The Chief'.
However now I will be required to train two people, and I am not happy about being forced to take this transfer. I was the one who originated my posistion, so although it is mundane, and frustrating, and not a rewarding posistion I don't want to see anyone else have it. And they'll all be having fun, and goofing around with all my friends in the back. People I am no longer allowed to even glance at. And what if the people I worked with decide they like her better than me or even worse (that she's a better worker than me)? And to top it off, I'll be stuck with 'Big Dick' and inept employee who is on her way out anyway? Doomed is what I am. DOOMED. All because I do a damned good job and 'Big Dick' couldn't face losing another employee.

Blaze has out-stayed her welcome

I never thought that it would come to this. We are looking for a new home, for Blaze-the wonder-pup. It is not even a full year of owning her, and she has sealed her own fate by being expelled from casa-de-mine.

Blaze is a great dog, don't get me wrong. She is just TOO MUCH dog, and we can't handle her. She has been through puppy school 1 and 1/2 times, and does not grasp the concept of certain commands. And when you repromand her, she all but laughes at you and defies you even more. She still has the habit of mouthing, and jumping but with Ida in the house, we can't afford to have Blaze knock her down. (As it is, Ida fell and fractured her foot two weeks ago.)

There are alot of mixed emotions in our house. We want to keep her so badly, as we love her. But on the other hand she is making us go mad. When she is go, she is a great dog. But when she is bad, she is satanic. We even thought about getting a smaller dog (as we DO want a dog) but she has us so exhausted, that we've opted not to go that route.